mind-blowing

I've had the most mind-blowing sex this weekend... it was just so amazing I get a hard-on just by remembering it.

the funny thing is this guy I know blew me that same day in the morning. also a great orgasm. it was the first time someone let me cum into their mouth. the guy really knew what he was doing...

needless to say, the mind-blowing-sex-guy also let me cum into his mouth. we were fucking really long. and his moaning was so f*ing hawt I could just cum to those sounds again :)

and in the background vintage porn played but let's just say we didn't get to see much of the action on tape ;)

other than sex... I went on a coffee date with this really cool guy. but the problem is we don't have a space to hang out (at least to kiss for starters) and I am really private about this. we texted for a couple of days after and it just slipped away later. I mean we could be friends for sure... and he could be boyfriend material but the space is the problem so I don't know if anything more will happen. 

the dating season

well this year is definitley gonna be something different. I've never been on a date with a guy (just sexdates and I don't consider that a date as we have never even had some coffee before). in a couple of weeks I am going on my first date... yay! of course I meet the people online, but still I really look forward to something more fufilling than just sex. 



movies mean a lot to me and I've just recently realised I've never even watched any gay themed movie... it helps to see these situations to encourage actually doing it. the first movie I watched and absolutley loved was The Shelter, second that was aslo great was Boy Culture, and last night I watched this comedy A Four Letter Word and it wasn't so touching as the first two but still it has a certain message.



the point is I am growing in a gay sense. I realised that I want something more than just sex and that's just wonderful... now I just need to find someone that wants it with me ;)

the martin twins

as you've probably heard ricky martin had twins with a surogat mother and plans to stop working for a year to take care of them. I think it's really sweet and his sexuality is not important here. of course everyone thinks he's gay but in the end it really is his private thing and it's probably not just his decision to stay closeted if this is true. can you imagine the machinery behind such a famous singer?

and just look at this picture - they look so happy together! how can society be so cruel to judge love and happines?



and can we really blame him for spending time with this major hottie??

you know what would maybe be a perfect scenario for me one day? to have 2 kids by a beautiful surogat mother - one with my semen and other one with my partners...
that way they would be half-brothers and each would have his own biological child :)
I know that I'm just dreaming now but still... it would be nice ;)

the queen of sticky&sweet herself

well as you've probably seen the videos and the pics big M. did her first sticky&sweet tour concert in cardiff. I've seen the videos (you can check it out here ONTD) but the quality is very bad so I've got a couple of videos from sticky&sweet promo concert in london :) the coreography and the scenes are very similar! enjoy!



I would just LOVE to see her live! :D

the lazy summer that's about to go away

I just love it when I spend whole summer practically doing nothing. just being lazy. it's crazy how the whole two months of summer just pass away like nothing. and in the beginning it's weird how you're gonna have to change your habits once again but still there is something special about going back to college each fall. first there is the student lifestyle. then there are your old friends reunited. then there are your old fuck buddies. then you have new freshmen you're gonna meet...



of course every year you hope there could be that special someone. but even if it's not you still get to meet great people that broaden your horizonts and in the end that's what college is all about.





I guess it's just a point of view... but if you ask me the glass is always half full! :)



The first picture is from Men Magazine and the rest of them are from Major Model.

rumer's rumor

a hot little thing was spotted with rumer these days... he is just so... cool... hot... casual... I love it! and how cool is that black punk-rocky watch?? The pics are from www.JustJared.com.

Speaking about rockin' jewlery check out this D&G necklace :) What says geek more than this? Love it! What I don't love is a +$100 price tag... Sale anyone?

the boyfriend to be

These past couple of days I've been on the beach constantly... I just love it how relaxing it is to sunbathe still soaked in water while the mild breeze is calmly touching your skin. The only problem is there are so many hot guys to look at... Being in the closet and living in a country that's not gay-friendly makes u constantly monitor yourself. a) you don't want somebody to notice you're checking a guy out b) you don't want the guy to notice you're checking him out cuz in the worst case it can get ugly. I constantly try to imagine how would it be to live in a world where this is 100% accepted. You see a guy, check him out, he sees it, checks you out, you meet up and go out for a drink!

I am currently searching for a boyfriend. I really need somebody to love emotionally and sexually. I am sure I will find that special someone, it may just take some time. Somebody to laugh with, somebody that attracts me physicaly, somebody that will be my best friend, somebody to look deeply at his eyes for no apparent reason when I wake up besides him, somebody to have wild sex with, somebody to comfort when he's sad, somebody to go out for an ice-cream with...

Somebody to help me do the laundry...




Somebody to share a book with and have great conversations about it afterwards...



Somebody that loves dogs and wants to have one...



Somebody that loves me for just being me.



All the pictures are from Major Model.