the first one

I've finally found someone I can connect with on all levels... I'm so happy :D 

He is my first boyfriend and I feel really blessed to be able to say that! Life is good! :)

 

express yourself / don't repress yourself

I made this video playlist at myflashfetish.com

And I'm not sorry (I'm not sorry)
It's human nature (it's human nature)
And I'm not sorry (I'm not sorry)
I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit
on me (it's human nature)

You wouldn't let me say the words I longed to say
You didn't want to see life through my eyes
(Express yourself, don't repress yourself)
You tried to shove me back
inside your narrow room
And silence me with bitterness and lies
(Express yourself, don't repress yourself)

Did I say something wrong?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
(I musta been crazy)
Did I stay too long?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't speak my mind
(What was I thinking)


You punished me for telling you my fantasies
I'm breakin' all the rules I didn't make
(Express yourself, don't repress yourself)
You took my words and made a trap for silly fools
You held me down and tried to make me break
(Express yourself, don't repress yourself)


Did I say something true?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex
(I musta been crazy)
Did I have a point of view?
Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about you
(What was I thinking)

Express yourself, don't repress
yourself [repeat twice]
Express yourself, don't repress
yourself [repeat twice]


(I'm not apologizing)
(Would it sound better if I were a man?)
(You're the one with the problem)
(Why don't you just deal with it)

(Would you like me better if I was?)
(We all feel the same way)
(I have no regrets)
(Just look in the mirror)

(I don't have to justify anything)
(I'm just like you)
(Why should I be?)
(Deal with it)

serenade

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

thinking about a guy I met online a couple of days ago that's really far away :(

can I have two to go, please

well if str8 guys can have female twins fantasy, we can have a male twins fantasy! oh boy! they're so cute I just want to cuddle them and wake up between them in the morning ;) besides the uber-hawt twins nothing new here... today the most popular free manhunt-like site closed... well we'll just see how things evolve now. or maybe it's a message - there really wasn't any notmal BF material there...

incredible cuteness

last nite I was at an event where I've seen this amazingly cute boy. I just don't know how is it possible for someone to be that special :) my gaydar, atleast what seems to be developing, was maybe even ticking off. well still as I already wrote I am closeted so I don't know how to behave in these situations... I just want a cute bf sooo much right now.

If only I could've hold him last nite...



first a bit of touching.



a bit of kissing.





a bit of pure joy. and then...




lol I'm just kidding if I had this boy I would never share him but this pic was just too hawt...

woMANizer

you know all those rumors britney would really be making a comeback with this new album and a new single? well they turned out to be totally true :D our brit-brit is baaack. just look at that bombastic video! and the dude isn't too bad either ;) His name is Brandon Stoughton...

mind-blowing

I've had the most mind-blowing sex this weekend... it was just so amazing I get a hard-on just by remembering it.

the funny thing is this guy I know blew me that same day in the morning. also a great orgasm. it was the first time someone let me cum into their mouth. the guy really knew what he was doing...

needless to say, the mind-blowing-sex-guy also let me cum into his mouth. we were fucking really long. and his moaning was so f*ing hawt I could just cum to those sounds again :)

and in the background vintage porn played but let's just say we didn't get to see much of the action on tape ;)

other than sex... I went on a coffee date with this really cool guy. but the problem is we don't have a space to hang out (at least to kiss for starters) and I am really private about this. we texted for a couple of days after and it just slipped away later. I mean we could be friends for sure... and he could be boyfriend material but the space is the problem so I don't know if anything more will happen.